Italian night

Tonight Kelly and I made a big spaghetti dinner and ate the most powerful garlic bread that I have ever had! Wow. She has gone off to rent Under the Tuscan Sun for us to watch, so it will be an official Italian night. We even have the last of a bottle of red wine left to share.
I have been feeling less sociable lately than I had been. Even more of an introvert, which is a little bit scary. Maybe it is from staring at a computer screen for most of the day and then coming home and doing this! I think it is also because I am still getting used to a lot of changes in my life in the last year. I moved out from home last July and then lost my job in Hershey in December. I started this new job at CAP in February and I am only finally feeling like I am competent at it. It is a great job, with great people, but I think even that was pretty intimidating. I felt like I had so much to prove. So I am getting there slowly, but it has taken a lot of energy. And then there have been a lot of changes in friendships and relationships, so all in all, I think I need to take a lot of time to myself to let things sit and sink in, and make sure this is really how I want my life to be. Rob is one of my co-workers and he told me that he and his wife often stop and ask each other, "are you really living today?". I think that is an amazing thing that a couple could do for each other, but for now I am just asking myself. And the answer is not always yes, but if I am running aroud so much that I don't even have time to ask the question, then I know I am not living as I want to be. So if I seem a little more distant or noncommital these days it is probably true. That is partly, again, why I hope that people stop by here, so that we can stay in touch and you can know what is going on that I probably haven't said. Writing is a lot easier for me than verbal communication, for whatever reason. Also, I changed the status of comment posting, so you don't need to be a member, anyone can freely leave their comments and can be as anonomous as they want as well.

singing in the choir...

Last night was worship practice at church and I am singing with a small version of the choir for the service on Sunday. We are doing a lot of stately hymns to go with the powerful new organ (the floor definitely rumbles) and I am standing next to Shawneen, who is an amazing soprano. I found out that she used to sing with the Boston Symphony Orchestra. She says she likes singing with me because we are both strong singers, which is an amazing compliment, but I still feel like I sound like a faint little buzz beside her. Her husband is the worship leader at my church and I don't think anyone loves music and worship more than him. His face just beams with delight while we worship in church. But I totally love the church choir, because we just laugh and laugh together. That was never how I pictured a curch choir to be. I always would have thought it would be serious and stuffy. The best part is when we are giggling and whispering right before our entrance, and the second before our cue we immediately stop, take a deep breath, focus, and sing at the top of our lungs. So this sunday is going to be one rockin' service with the belting out singing and the roaring organ and the smiles on our faces.

The wallpaper on my desktop

Here is the most wonderful photo that I got from YahooNews. It never fails to make me smile when I open up my laptop. Isn't it perfect for being so tiny?

what a blog should be about...

Thanks, all for your comments and warm reception.
I am thinking about what I would like this blog to be...Some blogs are personal, like a diary, and some are totally cryptic and you have no idea what is going on in the person's life. Some are issue related, like politics or music or soccer. I am not that much of an "issues" person, and I am not sure what my issue would be. Like with current events, I want to be informed, but I never feel like I really know enough to write out my own opinions. Though that might also be a cop-out and I should just say right out front what I think. More on this later...
A personal diary of the everyday things could be nice, but it might also just be mind-numbingly boring. A typical day has become go to work and look at a computer, come home and water my plants, check my email, work on our jigsaw puzzle, eat ice cream, read something, and go to bed...
No, I want this to be about me, and authentically me. So the personal parts of my life, and the things that I really care about, blended together and intergated is the goal to which I will be working. And I hope it will be entertaining and encouraging as well, but that will be for you to decide...

New self portait

I just bought a digital camera this weekend. Wow, it is so much fun. I should have tried to help this poor photo out in photoshop first, but I just couldn't wait, so here it is, the real and unpolished me.

my first post

Here it is, I have certainly put it off a long time. It is a strange thought that anybody in the world can read what I write here (if they find me anyway), but that is also the point, so that I can share who I am. Please come and join me on my journey... and blessings on your own.